A picture of me jumping for joy echoes how I am feeling today. For the last 9 months I have struggled with coccyx pain and today it is 90% gone. If you have had any kind of chronic physical pain you will know too well the dulling of life it creates, the constant niggle that effects your mood, your energy, your joie de vivre. All of these got me. I became irritable, extra tired ( not sure how this marks on a scale given the lack of sleep already attributed to having a baby !! ) But I felt constantly drained of energy. Today, my head is clearer and my energy is returned. I feel myself again.
As many of us do, I had a few different reactions to my pain. Some days I ignored it and pushed on through. Other days It got me down and I became a victim to it. Other days I got angry and frustrated,sometimes tearful. But overall I did pay attention to it. Pain is there calling your attention for a good reason. Something needs healing.
I have held a close relationship with pain for the last 13 years, working with thousands of people in my practice. Just that it was never my own. I managed to have a great sensitivity to my clients of the struggle and torture they went through but not through personal experience. Now I get it.
One article suggests that half of all UK adults suffer from chronic pain so it is likely that many of you reading this will know too well how pain changes your quality of life.
My own personal story stemmed from the birth of my baby. Post c-section began my relationship with ongoing coccyx pain. As a wellbeing practitioner I am lucky to have many experts around me but nothing really helped. I stayed away from painkillers. My thoughts on our ease of swallowing pain killers is a subject for another day.
So life with a new born and navigating the relationship with my partner definitely meant it took me longer to make changes. Taking a step back a month ago I realised the heightened stress state I was existing in. A normal state for us women trying to do everything well - the home, the baby, the work, looking good. And more often than not in the way our lives have evolved with very little hands on support. I lost both my mother and stepfather in the space of 3 years and am not the best for asking for help. Familiar?
The interconnection of our mind,bodies and emotions is skirted over in the medical world but in my opinion ( and it is only my opinion ) an enquiry in to what is going on in someones life emotionally and mentally as well as the physical examination is key.
A month ago as things seemed to fall more into place in my role as a mum and with my partner I found space to really listen to what I needed. Most days I do some movement and meditation and am a big advocate for prayer and asking for guidance. Through this practice and space I gave to myself the right things came that I needed. One was an amazing supplement that has helped my coccyx and the other a transforming pain video that sits on my website but I had forgotten about.
So, today is a very happy day. Pain free and with my attention back in the world again I have a new mission. To work with all you mums who could do with tips, guidance and support to keeping yourself sane and well ;) And back pain sufferers - I have a sense there are many of you. Come and work with me - www.rachelglendinning.com.
Anyone reading this and suffering with pain or know someone who could benefit check out the Transforming Pain video on my website under Videos from others. Please message me and let me know if it helps.